Questions from Nick
1) Do you like your name? If you were forced to change it, what would you change it to?
I used to HATE my name when I was younger. First and middle, that is. "Lauri Lynn!" People would say it with this exaggerated southern accent. Later, my name didn't bother me so much as my lack of a nickname. I wanted to have a lovely, delicate nickname. I think it was around fifth grade that I decided to be "Feather." Thank God that didn't stick. I've picked up a few nicknames along the way. I sent my sister a letter once, and she said my "u"s looked like "v"s, so she started calling me Lavri. I discouraged that one. She persisted. My niece, in that losing battle that all toddlers seem to have with the letter "r," called me Aunt Lolly. I liked that one. Sadly, it has fallen by the wayside. I have a good friend who called me Lauren. I have another good friend in Paris who calls me Lolo.
Now the only thing that bothers me about my name is that I still haven't reverted to my maiden name since my divorce. NO ONE can pronounce my ex's name on the first try. With phone callers I've learned to just break in, say it for them, and quickly move on. I used to dream and dream of the nom de plume I would take as a famous author! All the typical ridiculous things like Rosamond, Cordelia, Lucia, and so on. My latest choice for a pen name is "Lauri Morrow." I like the assonance thing going on there.
2) Is there anything that you, as a child, thought you would have accomplished by now that you haven't? If so, what? Do you regret it?
Oh, God. Many things. Well, "as a child" narrows it down. Let's see...I was going to be a veterinarian. I still think I would have been a good one. And, of course, a great writer. That one I still occasionally take out of the box and gaze at mistily. And an actress and a singer! I went a long way down that path before insecurity ripped out the infrastructure. I would like to have that feeling of talent back.
But one of my character flaws is allowing regret to take the upper hand against actual accomplishment, so I actively fight that now. Regret paralyzes me.
3) Is it ever difficult for you posting in the same forum as your husband? Are there times you censor yourself?
No, not at all! In fact, that's probably one of the easiest, most relaxed facets of our life together. After all, this is the medium where we met. But I must set the record straight and state that, unless you refer to common law statutes, we're not married (maidenly blush). We sit here and laugh at each other lots of times. There is one realm that I don't write about--his personal life. In other words, how he feels about and interacts with his family, his emotional life, his work, finances, blah blah blah. When I first started the LJ, I asked him if I could post about certain aspects of his life. He didn't say no, but it made him uncomfortable, so I didn't.
4) What was your most unfortunate romantic experience?
Aieeee. Maybe I should...censor this? Ok, I can't tell you the MOST unfortunate because that would make me terribly sad, but I can tell you about one of the most. During my groupie phase, I went from Houston to Austin with the saxophonist who was touring with Dexy's Midnight Runners. Kevin Rowland scowled at me whenever he saw me and made it clear that he disapproved. The saxophonist (very talented guy--he also played for Duran Duran on some of their albums--name withheld to protect someone or other) and I tried to have sex in the hotel bathroom one night (because he was SHARING a room, oh my total God) and after several attempts at various acts and accidentally tearing down the shower curtain and making numerous loud thumps as we fell off counters and such, we gave up and went down to the pool and spent all night talking about his dad who had recently died. It wasn't that unfortunate an experience, now that I think on it. Rather sweet, in fact. Too bad! That's the answer you get!
5) If you could chuck it all and do something else with your life, would you? What if you were guaranteed success? What would you do?
I fixed that little typo you made in "guaranteed." Ok then. You're welcome. If I could chuck it all...yep. In a heartbeat. BUT--what's stopping me from doing that right now? I feel obligated to stay close to my mother. And it's not a weary sense of duty--I love her, and I want to spend as much time with her as I can before she's gone, or I'm gone. Jeff doesn't want to leave Austin, but I do, quite seriously. But my desire to leave isn't nearly as strong as my desire to stay with him, so here I am. I would like to go spend a long time in Ireland, France, and Russia, my favorite places in the world (so far). I would travel until I wanted to see the folks back home, go visit, and leave again. But I'd miss my cats. And my nieces and nephews. And my friends. Huh. So you know, the answer is really no, I wouldn't chuck it all. Because I could right now, if I wanted to. I could find a way to make a thing like that, or at least very like that, happen. But here I am. As far as guaranteed success, HELL yes. But is the main reason I want success so that I will stop telling myself I'm a failure? I dinnae know. This stream of consciousness response must be SO enlightening to read!
So, my dream life is to have a real house in the south of France (a cliche, I know, but it's WONDERFUL), and little pied-a-terres in various other cities, and travel at will, and write beautifully, and get paid for it. But I'm not trying very hard to get there, hmmm? Hmmmm...STOP MAKING ME THINK, NIKC!
THE RULES! (lifted from grebby's page)
1 -- Leave a comment, saying you want to be interviewed.
2 -- I'll respond. I'll ask you five questions.
3 -- You'll update your journal with my five questions, and your five answers.
4 -- You'll include this explanation.
5 -- You'll ask other people five questions when they want to be interviewed.